Tuesday, October 23, 2007
-10:16 PM
Haiz...
Can we still resume to how we r be last time?
haiz...
i noe u dun love mi animore.
erased mi out of ur life.
we can nv be like last time.
haiz...
actually i was quite happi when u tok to mi
but reach home
saw ur blog
my name was gone
frm no where?
haiz....
nvm...
i'll juz continue be how i m now.
soorrrryyyy...
reli sorry
hope u wil l forgibb mi
& get back how we r last time
my oni wish.
i habb nv so upset b4
seriously
----Tues 3o1oo7
Haiz...
wad m i gonna do now?
ppl avoiding mi?
uncomfortable widd something tt i had done?
wad habb i done wrong?
seriously.
wad had i done wrongly?
avoiding mi?
m i reli tt taoyan?
nvm then.
i'll juz be how i m now.
but im reli sorry 4 wad i've done
but can ur tell mi wad habb i done wrongly?
reflect on wad i did?
i dun even noe wad r ur all saying about.
wad did i do?
can juz tell mi?
& wad good points & bad points?
seriously
i reli dunnoe wad r ur saying.
IMDYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SERIOULY DYING!!!
PROBLEMSAFTERPROBLEMS!!!!!!!!
THINKTHINKTHINK!
HOW TO THINK?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
DYING & DIE EVEN MORE?!
haiz....
(cries)
why my laptop in the living room
why my grandparents beside mi
---Fri 261007
Haiz....Bored...
Now ne?
who to be widd during in class?
4tunately there r still some other ppl
or else
wad m i gonna do?
wad can i do?
alone all the while?
haiz...
there r still band during holidays
nid to go sch agn.
but BAND Is much more better than in the CLASS!
where i habb no where to go
when i habb nothing to do
which i do not noe wad to do
& WAD CAN I DO?!
and i thk nobody can guess when im sad & when im happi during MSN
i can be as happi as normal on MSN
but actually im sad?
lol.
how to see if im sad
mayb i will juz kept replying lol.lol.lol.lol.
but i can dun reveal it too...
juz tok as per normal?
lol.
now & past
is reli totally different
past can be happi everytime
@ least will tok alot
but now
tok alittle
happi alittle
after sch no one
mayb cia?
Lol.
haiz....
life is reli sux to the core 4 mi now.
hope tt the relationship widd fwens will get better?
or
wad i dunwan to
get worst?
haiz.
nvm.
juz leave to nature?
mayb i'll juz nv get back to my past happi go lucky type of gal?
or
shld i juz act happi & everytime laugh laugh laugh?
act or truth?
haiz...
---Wed 241007
Left alone? In a group? Friends? True Friends? No friends? Acting Happi? Acting High? Nv emo? THey happi? i...?
haiz...
life is getting more & more miserable
i hate life more & more
life is getting mi sick of it
i hate sch even worst
nothing special is attracting mi to sch
no fwens?
nothing?
past?
u were in a group
happily playing
now?
u were alone?
emo-ing?
nothing more to do
fortunately
holiday is reaching soon
in sch
lonely?
if ur fwens dun like u?
stick widd them oso no use
they r detesting u more & more isnt it?
life is nothing i thk
is juz filled widd love?friends?& ur parents?
love?
friends no more?
ur life is half gone?
& ur heart
is reli sad
emo
but u r alwayz a high & happi gal
nobody will believe tt u r sad
so wads the poiint of acting happi & high
juz expose ur true expression
i dun reli noe wad im saying
juz trying to say all out
today?
like shit?
if alicia didnt accompany mi?
wad m i gonna do?
frm sch to home?
alone?
lonely?
loner as wad nelson say?
seriously?
mayb reli becoming a loner?
u r already sad when u r alone
& more worst?
people cum up to u & say u
how u feel tt time?
ur heart
how u feel?
almost
everyday
u r sitting alone?
she went widd them
best fwen?
animore?
dun thk so?
like past?
wad can u do?
SAD?!
nobody will noe how u felt tt time
u r trying ur best to act normal?
but how to?
nothing more to say
alll trying to say
no more fwens?
dunnoe
dunnoe
dunnoe
mayb 1?
or 2?
a grp?
no more i thk
memories are all memorable
future?
now?
................................................
-Tues 231007
♥XOXO
